I am writing a post about the real me because as embarrassing as it is to admit...i have somehow managed to lose a little bit of her over the past couple of years. I have woken up and realized i am not where i ever thought i would be at the age of 30. I have also had to come to terms with the fact that although I'm not exactly where i want to be, i am still happy with the way things have gone...i have had sooo much fun, learned so much about myself, and had the chance to live a little more than i ever have before.
I lived my life up until recently with the assumption that if i did everything i was "supposed" to do then i would always end up where i was "supposed" to be. That plan didn't really play out like i thought it would. I did things because it was the right thing to do, because i didn't really know what i wanted to do or who i wanted to be...so i just did what i thought i was supposed to do in hopes i would feel passion for something or someone along the way and figure it out eventually.
Living my life the past couple of years in a total different way then i have ever before...the good and the bad, has made me realize that sometimes you have to lose yourself a little before you can really find yourself.
Realizing what parts of me I have managed to let slip out of my reach and also realizing i really like and need those parts of me has really helped me to piece together the kind of person I feel most comfortable being.
And so...after having started my blog one year ago with totally different intentions (i lived thru turning 30) i now want to take it in a little bit of a different direction. During all of this learning experience and finding slash losing myself i realized how much i enjoy blogging...it makes me feel passion and so i need to continue it. im not sure the exact direction i will take but i do hope to post more on a daily basis about my life...it really helps to keep me grounded and somehow taking pictures of what i do and telling everyone make me stay real to who i am and want to be...so in a way you help me be more like the first picture i posted on here. Stay tuned...